An extract of my email to a friend

"...I've always been pessimistic and always bleak and always paint a grim picture on our society and humanity. I strongly believe that every single person is motivated by what I would call the "profit motive" - derived from the definition in economic terms, that everyone is literally motivated by profit, and that motivation is rarely [or even
remotely] selfless; is always selfish.

People do things for a reason, things happen for reason, and the actions of people speaks of their selfishness despite what they say - politicians are extremely guilty of this i daringly assume. The rest of us are more or less the same, of course that includes me. That in turn reminded me of my ex-girlfriend, my past failed relationships that ended without even having anything started despite all my good intents. They all ended in same way, in their final deliverance was to send me a very vengeful sentence, that I have never forgotten, that have never failed to hurt me deeply. This led me to believe that people who seek romance, are actually, really, often unconsciously, looking for dependency. Once found, they remain in parasitism to the host, and if the latter prove to be an unsuitable find, they leave [this applies to men and women alike].

I came to this conclusion some years ago, when I had consecutive failures in many relationships, romance and friendships...after being in years long of depression, I completely lost faith and hope in all things..for hope only seems to breed disappointment, which in turn breeds despair and dejection. The same reasons made me lose faith in God, not having hopes, simply living day after day.

I have to apologize for having to paint you such as awful picture that I have conjured from experience, but at the same time, I do hope to hear your views, what you think and feel about my "painting", and what humanity taught you. Although I always love to argue, do not be mistaken, i love to argue because i love to learn, and arguing is a process, a learning process. And winning an argument itself is not the art of argument itself, neither is winning the meaningful ends of an argument, but it is the process of arguing - which i ideally want it to be loving and wise and intelligent, {that serves as the crux, which gives meaning to the act of arguing. Only then, can an argument be truly meaningful, scholarly, and teaching}

Wishing you a wonderful weekend,
Richard

*the words in {} were added to complete the sentence that I had carelessly omitted in my email addressed to my friend.