Deepest Emotions

Earlier, I woke up with a dull feeling on my chest, like something very very heavy resting itself on me, and I can hardly breathe, even now.

I did and completed my morning rituals, watched tv, played maple story, but my mind was blank and dull like my chest. My thoughts drifted to the things that have recently happened...

A lost temper, mine...

offended my dearest friend...

a happy friendship, terminated just like that...

A heart full of regrets...

full of remorse...

full of apologies...

alas, she would no hear me again.


Met an old friend...

he was badly worn down...

by malpractice and neglience...

Seeing that, I was deeply ashamed of myself...

for I'm amongst the luckiest...

yet weak, as I am.


A heart filled with hope once again...

was disappointed once again.

When my heart took a leap into springs...

was pierced into bits then again.

Her hands were so soft...

her smile so beautiful...

enchanting...

was only a dream that lived for a day.


She was met with troubles...

I stretched my hand out to her.

She was in pain...

I was hurt being of no help to her.

I asked for nothing more, but to accept my aid,

rejecting me...

that pain killed my mind...

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Alas, I'm glad to have my brothers with me. It wasn't until yesterday, I saw for myself their love for me. Feeling embarrassed, ashamed having to have worried my friends, I'm too glad to know my brothers are right behind me. A great dinner is what we shall have to celebrate this false yet genuine brotherhood.

Strong, is what I shall be. Tough, is what I need to be. Like the coming marathon, I shall stay strong and hang on and finish race the way I should...

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"Life is tough, but we're tougher!"
- Hu Zhen Zhong

Light of the Day

It's only when I learn, overcome the past fears, and face these fears once again, then I can let go, and my burden shall be lightened and be eventually free.

I haven't been able to carry on with my life because my load's too heavy, weighing me down, and hence, incapicitated. I came to a point where I could move no longer - my burdens so heavy I was buried in, with little chance of escape. My fears kept following me, stalking me, hunted and preyed on me.

"Unless the lesson is learned, it is to be repeated over, and over, and over again, until it is learned."
- Anonymous