Vanishing

"..you know... it's been weeks, many weeks. I have been wondering around, been to many places, felt many things, thought of many things. And after so long, I'm back."

"But, things seem to have changed, even when everything look the same. I have changed..."

"...actually, all I want is to talk, nothing else. Even when I was away, left my work behind, every other things followed..."

"Blast..."

"I'm even more tired than before, (laughs softly) when I'm supposed to feel better after my break, ain't it?"

"Now I'm stuck, lost my words, don't know what to say now."

"(looking) I wish I am you, smiling so broadly every time I see you, everyday, every minute."

"I've always thought I've done pretty well, really. In almost everything I do, I gave it my best shot, even in things I didn't really like doing, but I did anyway. "

"Or perhaps, I am just delusional, just like she had said."

"To you, I admit, that I'm a bad son to my father. I know it, and I am sorry I can't really do any better than that. I do what I can...for as long as I still hold on to my last bit of sanity."

"You know, I nearly lost it many times during these short weeks or months. Sometimes it seems like things don't matter, or would change any single bit even if I leave..."

"Life would go on, I am just a single drop of water in the vast ocean..."

"...would be forgotten."

"Once I had a dream...nobody came. And when I saw that...I was very upset. After all, I guess I really have to believe that I've done a terrible job at everything I do."

"No longer present is self-identity...but just like a shapeless, formless, nameless shadow..."

"Nobody tells me who I am anymore and...their eyes...seem to tell me that I've lost it."

"Hey you! Yeah, nutcase!!! I'm talking to you!!"

"Moron..."

"He's nuts..."

"Very slowly, yet so quickly, it feels like I'm vanishing from the face of this earth..."

"Am I?"

"I don't know if I feel upset anymore, perhaps, it's due to acceptance. The acceptance of fate, that's what it is. Or rather, 'destiny' is a better word."

"I never believed in that..."

"...but, I guess I do now."